Such Humble Idea

Such Humble Idea

I believe that if one day the one who said would be with you to the doomsday at the very beginning once told you that ,by his own tongue, there would be no more love between you tow, it’s must be my false for having done something he could not stand. Otherwise, soft as men’s hearts are, how can these words, as hard as ice in winter, flowed out of his mouth?   重庆文学/js^*}3w,h4m

Now, at the end of this sad year, I began to understand what the truth is, that my love turned into pressure on you. We try to release ourselves when troubles come, and there are quite a few means and your choosing to say no more love is just one of them. One is not loved only because of being not excellent, think over, and you will know this is true. 

I didn’t follow your way, for instance. I remembered all the promises of you while you said it’s horror to come around a person who has wonderful memory capacity. Another case for example, I kept all the short messages, from the first one to the last one. How long was our love? Thirty pages, the SMS, from the first one we got to know each other to the last no-more-love one. Word by word, I wrote thirty pages! Quite long, but not as long as my sleepless nights, far shorter than the endless sorrow shadow after me.重庆文学/A#S2kwAPH2@Mu}

Sat at the edge of the cliff of this year, jump over and touch the New Year. I know I’ll be hugged by the land, by the field of the fiery red grape flowers. It is perfectly beautiful but not as pretty as you are, not nice as your figure, not as your smile and voice.

Owning the habit of retrospection for the past days, I suddenly felt how humble I was, having not had said a NO to you! The feelings are too untidy···I promised your to let you go so long as you like but burst into tears one more time after first. I said would wait you for three years to hope you to turn around but I am now in another love, by then you were to say no more love, by then I didn’t even think that I would love anyone but you, by then you said such a period was too short, greedily. It was my fault that I didn’t promise to a person that didn’t love me anymore to wait for a life time.重庆文学*O+bGs}pE2X2tj[

Really, one is not loved only because of being not excellent. I had no opportunity to show you my love poems or it may be the case that I haven’t seek the chances.

Say if I did have done one thing right, it was that I wished you everything goes well, without tears, after getting your last no-more-love SMS.